A really strange morning that turned around thanks to a smoothie

Alright, so I keep waking up at all odd hours of the morning, which is both bad and strange since mono means I should be sleeping more… not less.

Today I woke up at five thirty.  And have not yet gone back to sleep.

Then our kitchen is something of a disaster right now, no one will empty the dish washer and we’ve got dishes that are slowly trying to take over the kitchen. They sent their warning message to me today by launching a champagne glass at me.  I deflected it, but the glass did not fare so well.  It shattered on the floor.  So I cleaned that up and I felt really bad about breaking a glass and so I sulked back to my room and worked on my paper project for today and got ready and then went to get paperwork signed.

While I was out getting paperwork done, I was listening to this absolutely awesome playlist that gave me an idea based on a gif I saw which sparked something else entirely!  In short, I started writing in starbucks while I drank my orange mango smoothie.  It was delicious.  🙂  The smoothie got me all excited and I got back home and I wrote…

I’m still writing and very pleased about it 🙂


Rough Day

I cut my thumb with a bread knife.  I was trying to slice a bagel and it kind of failed….

Slammed other thumb into door.

Head hurt all day.

Lots of homework.

I’m feeling a little bit better now, but it’s just feeling like I need hugs and chocolate and more hugs.

Routines and investments for teaching

Good morning.  Yet again, I am awake much earlier than I had anticipated being awake. Why?  I still have no idea why I am conscious.  The past few weeks I haven’t been able to get out of bed before ten, much less be entirely conscious before seven.  I don’t know what it is… but I won’t look a gift horse in the mouth I suppose.  I’ve got my coffee and my cereal, sent off an email to my adviser regarding some paperwork, have my happy light on.

Something I’m really big into is routines.  I like knowing what I’m doing in the day, I like to have  a schedule of sorts.  I don’t have to follow it down to the minute, but I like knowing what I’m doing, where I’m going, what needs to be done for the day.  I also like being able to follow the same sort of steps for my day.

I wake up, I have my cereal and coffee.  I check my email and a few other things.  I shower, wash my hair, all those good things.  Then I get out of the shower, return to the computer or read while I have yogurt and fruit.  Then I blow dry my hair, brush my teeth, put make up and clothes on, fix snack and my bag, then I am out the door.  It’s a simple morning thing.  It really helps me focus for the day.  Is that strange?  I’ve seen college kids who literally just fly out of bed and run to class.  I couldn’t do that.  With the extra time this morning, I’m working on a topic presentation on teaching spelling.  I actually really enjoyed spelling as a kid, which makes doing this topic presentation a little less formidable.  I hope I enjoy teaching spelling.

Speaking of teaching, let me come to my next point.  Last night, for my science class, I attended a teaching panel, as an audience member of course.  We had several elementary school teachers come in and talk to us about their jobs, as well as any struggles or advice they had.  They teachers were all very helpful, even if they did incite a little fear from me.  Something I wanted to note was that they mentioned investments for teaching.

What precisely is an investment for teaching?  Something that you might not use terrible much now, but you will use a lot in the field.  Things like teaching appropriate clothes, especially with student teaching coming up in a year, and technology, like an iPad.

I kept thinking…

Investments?  Investing in clothes for teaching, clothes that are comfortable, nice, professional, and most all tat you can move in.  You can’t move around in five inch heels with first graders, you’d keel over.  It just makes me think, because I own and wear a lot of jeans and boots.  So i keep thinking about teaching appropriate ensembles and how much money I’m probably going to have to spend on them…

Then there’s the iPad.  I admit it, I think they are really cool.  I have seen lots of apps that teachers can use to help their students learn and I think that it’s brilliant.  However, do you know how pricey an iPad with 64 gb is? About 700 dollars.  That is insane.  The thing is, they give out iPads for a class I’m taking next semester and Azure Lights and Mayzie la Bird both have them right now.  They are addicted.b  What happens when you have to give it back?  I’d rather buy one and then have it to keep.  So there goes some of my potential earnings for this summer, if i can convince the keeper of my bank account (my mum) to spend money on such a frivolous thing.

It all seems so crazy that I’m thinking about the real world, really teaching and being with kids…

I’m scared, but I know I can do it.

Woke up Unusually Early Today

I have no idea why I woke up at seven.  My alarm was set to go off at nine.  So why was I awake at seven on a Monday morning?  Damned if I know, I just couldn’t get back to sleep.  So I made coffee, painted my nails, had some cereal and went through my emails and the weather for today.  My nails are orange and blue now, I’m super happy at how cute they look ( essie’s Tart Deco and nail’s inc london Baker Street).

I even put my happy lamp on for the first time in… almost two months.  I just don’t have anywhere to put it really so I have a hard time using it at school.  Today it ended up on my bed, propped up by a window while I ate breakfast and did my nails.  It seems to have done the trick, along with a very small amount of coffee.

On a very random note, i’m currently a little concerned at jumping in the shower because my nails are not yet entirely dry … No need for nail polish in my hair…  However, I need to go shower sooner rather than later so let’s hope that they stay put… Cause I just spent an hour on them and if they end up badly so help me God, I will be very very angry.  Ok, happy thoughts…. worse comes to worse, if they get ruined in the shower, I’ll take them off and repaint when I have a break between classes.  I need to jump in the shower like now so I can be ready.

So, I’m out of the shower and my nails survived!  I still think I might try to do another topcoat just in case, but I have no idea if I’ll have the time.

I’ll try to post again before the day is through.  Wish me luck, I’ve got my night class tonight!

A Job I’d be Good at

I was at Barnes and Noble yesterday, perusing the young adult novels.  I don’t know why I still love them so much, but I do.  While I was looking for some more books to purchase, this girl and her father were staring at this books series that just released a new book. She was looking for the book I had, so I asked if the book she was looking for was the Indigo Spell.  The girl was like , yes!  I turned and pointed her towards a copy.  She looked so happy.

This could be my second job.  Working in a book store.  Sure, I am unsure how to do stock and many of the other things you need to know.  However, I think that I could be good at working a book store because I help people find things they need or want 🙂

Tentative inspiration

I’m never sure if my muse is just teasing or is she intends to stick around for more than a few hours.  She can be inspired by the littlest things, like a picture of a woman putting on make up, or a piece of clothing, an outfit.  It can be a song, a quote, anything really will spark her.  I can’t tell if that means I’m not feeding her enough or if the feedings are too sporadic or if she just wants attention.  I’m hoping that I can do better soon.  I miss writing a lot.  I miss writing concretely.

Today was a bit of stretch.  I was taking care of my boy because he was sick.  So now I’m tired and I’m hoping he’s still doing alright now.


Virgin’s dance



Red hot embarrassment settles in high cheek bones

While this debonair young man twirls her

Around and around, by the river

Underneath the bridge with the striking stones


Her friends, or are they?, sit and watch the pair

She worries quickly, does she look alright?

Her steps are awkward and unpolished, while

His speak of a dedication to the art of seduction


She isn’t sure why her friends sit and stare

Do they enjoy watching this slow but steady

Dance, this partnership between two unwilling

But all two willing to their emotions


She knows with each twirl of her skirt

And careful clack of the low heeled shoes

He steps closer, is closer to pressing into her

Pressing into her


She hopes they’ll disappear, the people

She could care less about, so that they

Can be alone.  Alone underneath the bridge

To consummate their little dance

Plenty of things to do, but an unwillingness to do them

As my title states, I have plenty of things to do.  i could start on that outline for reading.  I could make flashcards for Assessment.  I could do my giant amount of graph paper math homework.  I could do paperwork, or clean, or polish my nails because the polish is chipping.  However, all I want to do right now… is nothing.  Or … not really nothing, but just simple things like make my lunch and read my book.

I just started reading The Time Traveler’s Wife again.  I love this book.  This book is beautiful and gorgeous and I absolutely adore in a way that I cannot fathom.  I read it and the words almost sing to me.  That’s how much I love this book.  It also comes with some of my favorite quotes such as ” My apartment is basically a couch, an armchair, and about four thousand books.”  This quote is just… in a way, so picturesque without having to try.  I can easily imagine it.  A small place with a green velvet couch, a maroon colored armchair with coffee stains on it.  There are literally thousands of books.  Some on shelves, others stacked in piles on the floor.  Some hide underneath the chair and some lean on the legs of the couch.  It just sounds perfect to me.

Back to my unwillingness to do things.  I can’t tell if it’s the mono, the February Blahs, or just being lazy.  I just a math response so I feel a little bit less like a bum.  Now I need to make lunch and probably take a nap somewhere in there before I dive into the huge amount of homework that’s waiting.  It’s not huge, but I would rather start it now before things start getting crazy.

What I’d really like to try to do today is finish the first chapter of a story I started over the weekend.  I think I might be able to now, I just needed a little push or so.  Hopefully I will post it up here and see what you guys think.  But first, I need to send it off to my editor (Bass Man)  to see what he thinks.  It’s been a while since I’ve concretely tried writing anything.  I just end up feeling so bad about not finishing shit….

I would like to admit that I think I made the greatest playlist ever.   It just went from Chasing Cars to The Final Countdown.  I love it 🙂

Alright, so more on my rants, I really want some money to buy new clothes from Modcloth.  I am not usually in the mood to buy new clothes, but they are so cute.  There’s this sweater with the word lover on it in a little red heart.  Then there’s a red cotton skirt that would go with it along with some tights and my chucks.  There there’s these high rise jeans that look absolutely banging, that I could wear with the white polka dotted shirt or the black one or the green and yellow plaid.  Don’t get me started on the shoes, there’s a gray pair with subtle little faces on them and a yellow and white striped pair of flats and I want it all.  It’s really pricey though and I am ranting.

I think it’s time for lunch and nap.  Be back in a while, perhaps with a story or a poem!