Counting Blessings

I am kind of, sort of, a little, not so much as earlier, in a bit of funk.  It happens.  The Nuva Ring, my birth control choice, tends to give me highs and lows, but that is very very normal for me.  But when I am in a funk I tend to be moody and crabby and icky.

So, what I tend to do in this situation is try to count the good things.  Writing works better than anything else.

ANNNDDDDD HHHHEEEERRRRREEEE  WWWWEEEEEE GGGGGGOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • I am in good health.  I am not sick nor ill, nor am I suffering from any major injuries
  • I have a job.  In this economy, having a job is a great thing.
  • I really like my job.  Yes there are downsides, but at the same time there is so much to love about it
  • My family is healthy and happy and I love them, as they do me.
  • I have a roof over my head, food, water, and plenty electronics to play with
  • I have books. Literally lots of books
  • My boyfriend is a constant blessing.  He makes me so happy
  • I have internet!
  • I have so many friends that are blessings and helpful and good to me
  • I got paid today
  • I went to Firefly, an amazing music experience
  • My muse is tentatively still present
  • I am tan (for the first time in my life, I am not pasty, pale or white.  BUT TAN)
  • I am healthy
  • I have an abundance of good things
  • I am loved.  I am loved by so many 🙂

Pillow fort and Doctor Who with Amy Pond

So, Amy Pond came back after I took my walk.  She’s been away for a while.  Like two weeks or so.

So we built this fort out of blankets and comforters and pillows.  We’re watching Doctor Who, season 5, the lodger.

I would like to note that Matt Smith’s legs are bloody gorgeous.  He’s was in a soccer kit and all I could think was… the doctor’s pant don’t do him justice.

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Less than a week til work starts

Alright, so as some of you many or may not know, I work as a nanny in the summertime.  The reason that makes sense to me is because the kids go to school and have after school programs during the rest of the year.  However, int eh summer time, just like me, they are on vacation from all of that.  However, parents can’t always take off for a whole summer to watch and play and enjoy the warmth of the season that permeates us with sticky Popsicles and running through sprinklers and simply just doing the things that we enjoy most.

That’s where I come in.

To be specific about these kids, there are two.  They are both boys.  One of them is four and the other is six.  They are fair skinned and blonde and have blue eyes, and often get mistaken for being my own children (which leads to very interesting stories).  They are good kids and I have known the elder one since he was 18 months and the younger one I have known since his birth.  They are like family to me and I am like family to them.

So I nanny.

What is a nanny?  What is it that I do all day?

I get my butt out of bed early.  I make myself breakfast and much needed coffee.  I grab my bag, my lunch, and any activities that I plan on doing during the day, then I walk.  Yes, I walk to work.  I do not have a license, I also cannot justify driving what is essentially five blocks away from my house to the house of the two boys I nanny.  However, once I get my license and am able to drive, I probably will do to the fact that then I will be able to take the kids places and we won’t have to walk everywhere which gets boring and tedious when it gets hot.

So I walk there.  I drop off my lunch in the fridge, talk to which ever parent is there about whatever until that parent leaves.  at this point, the four year old might be up already or might still be asleep.  If he’s up, he gets to pick what we watch or if he’d like to read a book with me or if he wants breakfast or wants to wait for his brother.  Usually, we end up watching TV and I end up relaxing a little.  If neither child is up, I get that precious time to drink some more coffee and read without constantly listening for accidents or worries.

Once they’re both up, I make breakfast and we play games or get dressed and go outside.  I am pretty much their play slave until lunch, in which I make food and then there is nap time.  After that little segment of piece, they are both at it again with video games or going outside or whatever we choose to do.  Then the parent comes home, I walk home and generally don’t move for a little while because I am so tired.

But the thing about this summer, rather than last summer is that now we have a pool membership.  I think this will be great because I love swimming and pools and just generally all things that are involved in those.  The boys love to swim and we now have a place to go outside of the house.  There will also usually be kids they know there which makes my life a little easier and I will get to stay in a bathing suit for most of summer, something I haven’t done since I myself belonged to the swim club.

That was a lot of ranting about my job, or well the general directions and applications of my job.

Did you guys I know I love my job?

Seriously, I do though.  I work in the summers, I get paid really well (I won’t go into details, but I can usually stretch the money I make in the summer time to make grocery trips for all of first semester and half of second semester.)  I get to basically hang out with little kids all day and sure, they do crazy things like run around in their underwear or steal from one another or decide (you will have no idea how long it took me to spell that correctly) that it should be play fight time and then I am subjected to running and hiding and shin kicks.  These kids though, they are like my kids.  I love them and getting to work with them every day is fantastic.

Enough sappy talk about me and my love for young humans.  Let’s talk about what I’ve been doing since school let out.

Sleep.  There has been a lot of sleep.  I am enjoying not having to wake up for any particular reason.  There’s been packing.  Since I am moving otu of this apartment and partially back home, partially into my boy’s new house,  I have been packing a lot.  My room is pretty bare right now and it’s  strange for me.  I have been taking walks and making food and watching youtube (so much youtube) and reading.  There has been an insane amount of reading.  I plan on reading more actually once I am done this post.

Today’s to-d0: pack more stuff, read more, go for a walk because it’s not too terribly hot out and I’d like to walk without sweating an inhumane amount.  I should also make lunch and run the dishwasher again and then read and write and put my sheets in the laundry machines so that they can be clean and lovely.

DFTBA everyone and I hope you all have a lovely day!

The little things

She delights in the little things during her brief respite

Between academic courses and arduous hours of work

 

Like cream dispersing into coffee, swirling, marbled

And letting her body wake, not to the sound of an alarm

 

Folding laundry, warm and heady from the dryer

Late night interludes with her loud mouth cat

 

Fixing dinner for herself, crafting, creating and dining

The quiet laughter of a group of friends, together and apart

 

She loves the feeling of her extended showers,  steamed perfection

And the pages of silken books that slip through her fingers

 

There’s the tender kiss of her boyfriend’s mouth to her’s

As well as his sleeping search for her, to cuddle, to hold

 

She delights in the little things during her brief respite

Between academic courses and arduous hours of work

Broadway Bound Again!

I am unsure if I posted that on this blog or the other, so I will simply retell it here.

Every summer for the past three years, my mother and I have found the time and the energy (and the cash) to venture forth to New York City for a day or two, to go and see a Broadway show (or two) and to generally just wander around and enjoy the city the never sleeps.  I personally love this city and feel strangely at peace there.  There’s this pulse to the city, this pulse that thrums and hums and beats and it feels like… perfection to me.

However, this year we were unsure if we wanted to go or not.  We were unsure of what shows we’d go see, mostly because the big draw for the pair of us is to go and see a show.  WE FOUND SOME SHOWS THOUGH!

We are going to go see Cinderella on Broadway, as well as Newsies!

Both look spectacular and I am enthralled already.

Look out NYC, I’m coming back 🙂

Eclectic Activities

I am beginning to realize that I have a somewhat varied and eclectic taste in activities outside of school.  Not really when it comes to reading or the writing, that’s fairly normal.  It’s the other activities that i find myself engaging in.

Like shooting guns in a range, horseback riding, and rock climbing (all relatively new aspects to my life)  As well as in my formative years, karate, mixed martial arts, gymnastics, swimming, and a very brief stint acting.

The Ex taught me how to shoot when we first started going out well over a year ago.  I don’t necessarily have the fine tuned magnetism to hit the X every time, but my aim is pretty good.  I haven’t picked up a gun in a while now, but I would like to go back to try it out.  Mainly to prove to myself that I still can.  Horseback riding came from my friend Horsing Around, she’s been teaching me on and off for a few months.  I really like it and I think it’s just a lot of fun.  Horses are such nice animals.   The rock climbing is a recent en devour,  my roommate Hockey took me there and I find myself really intrigued by everything.  I am not a giant fan of heights, but I think I can get over if it means I can hum the spider man theme as I climb.

My interests range in many different directions, but I kind of like that.  Unexpected can be good.

By the way, I finished all my finals and my grades will be up soon….

Wish me luck!

Don’t Forget To Be Awesome!

Hoppy Easter! (see what I did there?)

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I know not everyone celebrates this holiday, but either way have an amazing day.

If you do celebrate, what did you get in your Easter basket?

I got some new eye shadow palettes, some gift cards to ULTA, iTunes (which has already been used), and grocery money, as well as… BOOKS!  I got Good Omens by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaimen and The Elegance of the Hedgehog by Muriel Barbery.

If you’re wondering what I bought on iTunes, I got a song by Jon Cozart (if you don’t now who he is, go look him up… like fucking now), some songs from teh Next To Normal Soundtrack, Do You Hear the People Sing ? from Les Mis, Titanium by David Guetta, I Am The Doctor, and all of Sherlock Season One soundtrack.  before writing this I was dancing around in my pajamas to the music.  I am happy little bunny today.

HOPPY EASTER EVERYONE!

(or if you do not celebrate, HAPPY SUNDAY!)

Excitement

Good Morning!

It’s eight o’clock here and I have actually been awake since six.  Maybe because I was trying to convince my boy that his phone was an hour off and if he didn’t get out of bed, he’d be late for work.  Or maybe it’s because I AM GOING BACK TO PRE SCHOOL TODAY!

Now, for those of you who have only recently started following me, let me recap.  from September to December of 2012, I had a field placement in a pre school classroom not too far from college.  I fell absolutely in love with my students, and everyday I went there, I felt good about myself.  Now, around the end of September, my (then boyfriend) dumped me unexpectedly and I was pretty much at a loss for what to do.  There were a lot of people who helped me out at that time.  One of them was a blogger, a couple were my roommates, one of them was Call Me Maybe, another was Horsing Around.  I had so many influences that helped me get better and helped me become a better person.

One of the biggest ones was my pre schoolers.  No matter what was happening in my life, whether it be school or homework or social problems or boys, they were there for me.  Now, I don’t mean there for me in the traditional sense that they let me vent and talk and cry.  These kids always came in with smiles and hugs and they would take me away from my life and my problems.  It also helped because I could see the impact I had on them.  I watch a child who had trouble in social situations get better and make friends.  I watched them grow and laugh and learn.  It’s a beautiful thing, a wonderful thing.

I’m so excited to go back and visit them.  i get the feeling though that my heart will probably break when I have to leave today, but I don’t give a damn.  I miss my kids.

Sunshine :)

Today is an amazing day.  NO, not because I woke up to my favorite person ever (although that does make any day wonderful).  Not because I got to eat at a diner and have great food.  Not because I watched a movie with a few friends, or because I”m actually being productive…

Today is a great day because it is sunny.

Sunshine is my best friend.  Thanks to seasonal depression, I am usually in a funk during the winter.  Well… with winter ending and the sun emerging, I can feel myself doing all that much better.  Today was warm and relatively sunny so I am super happy.

The sunshine is amazing.  I love it 🙂