So, last night I was feeling particularly down and I wrote up this rant.
Colleges that stuff a winter semester into their winter breaks need to have a basic understanding of something. It drives the students who don’t want to, or whom are unable to, take classes insane. I mean that literally. It drives me nuts that I still have another two weeks of break left. Most of my friends with colleges who have normal winter breaks have gone back and are busy studying and doing work. The ones, like me, are just sitting around at home waiting.
Technically, I could be back at the apartment, however I am desperately trying to avoid buying my own groceries for as long as possible since my bank account is now controlled by my mother. If I were back at my apartment, I’d have my roommates and my cat. I love my family though, and when I go back to school I usually just stay there. This isn’t freshmen year where I was home every weekend of every week I could.
I could be working, but I don’t have a steady job. My steady job is babysitting and nannying in the summer. I have babysat a few times and it has been wonderful. However, that isn’t constant. I see my friends and am tend be on the more active side of social. These past two days have just been me in a kind of funk and it’s making me grumpy and the winter blues have not been helping.
I really miss my laptop. It’s a weird statement, but I do. I miss just sitting and typing on it, because let’s face it. I love my iTouch very much, but the feeling of keys underneath my fingers is something that every writer knows and loves. The same way I love holding paper and pencil. The same way I love watching birds or turning a page or the snow. By the way, I am not writing this on my iTouch. I’m borrowing the house computer and writing on here. It helps, writing, releasing my thoughts and letting them roam where ever they may please.
So I’m sitting a proper desk with a mug of hot berry tea in my sweats and a fleece jacket and writing. It’s Tuesday night and I am still feeling a little down. I know it will pass, I know that much. I get little moments of sadness, boredom. I have little moments of happy too.
When I’m bored, what do I do? Well, I don’t sit in front of my television and browse. Not lately anyway. My brother has been home sick lately and if he has the couch, I can’t go down there. I usually read or play on my iTouch or go on facebook and the like. It’s a terribly boring time. Sometimes I blog. Clearly, I need to be doing more things.
I think another that might have me down is that I didn’t get to see my boyfriend tonight. He was going to come by and give me a lesson for driving, but he got caught up at work. Which is good actually. He needs more work, he has had a dry spell and it’s bothering him since he has bills to pay and the like. So work for him is good. And I’ll see him soon since we’re kidnapping Pretty in Pink later this week. I will have things later to do this week, it’s just at this present time in which I am bored as hell and feeling a little out of my mind.
I can’t tell if this has helped, but I think it has. At least, it’s gotten it all out on paper, which is what I usually need. Tomorrow I visit Nana, oh joy. Let us hope that all goes well. I am going to drink my tea and read some more, perhaps watch more John Green on Youtube. Who knows?
So that was last night.
Today on the other hand seems to be going splendidly. I am going to get tea with a friend in an hour or so, and perhaps I’ll find biscotti or a cookie at the cafe. I will also get to see my boyfriend tonight and that makes me extremely happy. I’ve done three loads of laundry, am reading a delightful new book, and will most likely finish it soon.
I want to thank the bloggers. Because guess what?
I GOT 200 LIKES!!!!!!!!!!
That is amazing! I adore you all and thank you so much. It makes me so happy to see that you like what I write so thank you!