Blogging from Places: Starbucks

Ah, I dos o love this place.  What place?  Starbucks.

Aside form the fact that the entire establishment smells of coffee and backed goods (two smells that I absolutely adore), it has some of my favorite drinks.  I know I’ve been cleared from my liver function tests, but I am concerned about a relapse since I haven’t been sleeping a lot.  Being in and out  of the ER and having my boy keep me up does not make for eight to ten hours of steady sleep.

Instead of my usual latte or mocha, I’ve got a mango smoothie.  It is fucking delicious.  It’s all fruit and protein powder and it makes me feel all good.  The only downside to this chilled drink is that if I take outside it’ll turn into a Popsicle.  It’s really good out and while many of my peers are choosing the warmer drinks, I like this.  It’s caffeine free and healthy.

Let’s see, on to other news…  Like I mentioned before, my liver function tests came back normal and therefore, I can engage in physical contact sports and activities, have caffeine, and alcohol.  Amy Pond is still in the hospital.  We do not know what is wrong wit her, we only know that she is miserable.  They’re running tests but nothing has come back.  I’m really worried about her.  It’s really scary.  I’m still writing in the story I mentioned, it went along with my muse poem.  It’s going slower, but it’s still moving.  I know I should edit (because my first drafts are usually so fucking wordy that I sit there with my red pen and go “how on earth did I write this?”), but I want to try and finis the second chapter before I do that.  Hopefully, I would finish the outlined chapters three and four before I started on edits, but I don’t know how well that would go.  Not that I don’t think I wouldn’t be able to write, it’s just getting to be that time of the semester when all my teachers dump work on my simultaneously.  Usually when that happens I stay awake at all hours and ignore everything, including my editing.  I am determined to get through this, at least through the rest of the chapter.  If I really want to edit after that, then I will.  Hopefully that will go alright….

On the list of things I need to do this weekend: text set, annotated bibliographies, worksheet for grading, reading response for math… Homework wise that is it I think.

OH!  So, my boy wasn’t in a great mood last night but he said he had a present for me.  I went and got it and it was necklace.  It’s pretty and sparkly and made of diamonds.  Not all made of diamonds, but just the charm.  🙂  He’s super nice like that.  🙂  He makes me feel very special (and not eat the paste special)

I think I need to try and finish this stupid kissing scene before I run to meet up with Mayzie la bird and … shit I don’t have a name for her!…. ummmmmm  The Jewelry Maker!  YES!

Don’t Forget To Be Awesome!

Routines and investments for teaching

Good morning.  Yet again, I am awake much earlier than I had anticipated being awake. Why?  I still have no idea why I am conscious.  The past few weeks I haven’t been able to get out of bed before ten, much less be entirely conscious before seven.  I don’t know what it is… but I won’t look a gift horse in the mouth I suppose.  I’ve got my coffee and my cereal, sent off an email to my adviser regarding some paperwork, have my happy light on.

Something I’m really big into is routines.  I like knowing what I’m doing in the day, I like to have  a schedule of sorts.  I don’t have to follow it down to the minute, but I like knowing what I’m doing, where I’m going, what needs to be done for the day.  I also like being able to follow the same sort of steps for my day.

I wake up, I have my cereal and coffee.  I check my email and a few other things.  I shower, wash my hair, all those good things.  Then I get out of the shower, return to the computer or read while I have yogurt and fruit.  Then I blow dry my hair, brush my teeth, put make up and clothes on, fix snack and my bag, then I am out the door.  It’s a simple morning thing.  It really helps me focus for the day.  Is that strange?  I’ve seen college kids who literally just fly out of bed and run to class.  I couldn’t do that.  With the extra time this morning, I’m working on a topic presentation on teaching spelling.  I actually really enjoyed spelling as a kid, which makes doing this topic presentation a little less formidable.  I hope I enjoy teaching spelling.

Speaking of teaching, let me come to my next point.  Last night, for my science class, I attended a teaching panel, as an audience member of course.  We had several elementary school teachers come in and talk to us about their jobs, as well as any struggles or advice they had.  They teachers were all very helpful, even if they did incite a little fear from me.  Something I wanted to note was that they mentioned investments for teaching.

What precisely is an investment for teaching?  Something that you might not use terrible much now, but you will use a lot in the field.  Things like teaching appropriate clothes, especially with student teaching coming up in a year, and technology, like an iPad.

I kept thinking…

Investments?  Investing in clothes for teaching, clothes that are comfortable, nice, professional, and most all tat you can move in.  You can’t move around in five inch heels with first graders, you’d keel over.  It just makes me think, because I own and wear a lot of jeans and boots.  So i keep thinking about teaching appropriate ensembles and how much money I’m probably going to have to spend on them…

Then there’s the iPad.  I admit it, I think they are really cool.  I have seen lots of apps that teachers can use to help their students learn and I think that it’s brilliant.  However, do you know how pricey an iPad with 64 gb is? About 700 dollars.  That is insane.  The thing is, they give out iPads for a class I’m taking next semester and Azure Lights and Mayzie la Bird both have them right now.  They are addicted.b  What happens when you have to give it back?  I’d rather buy one and then have it to keep.  So there goes some of my potential earnings for this summer, if i can convince the keeper of my bank account (my mum) to spend money on such a frivolous thing.

It all seems so crazy that I’m thinking about the real world, really teaching and being with kids…

I’m scared, but I know I can do it.


Hi everyone!

So, I wanted to let you know that I am feeling a little more like a human and less like a zombie.  Which is a good thing, although I hear brains are very tasty.  None the less, i am recovering nicely, or well… as nicely as I can.  I still can’t do too much, but I can swallow, my lymph node swelling is going down, and my fever broke a few days ago.  Tonight I head back to campus after dinner.  Once there, I will most likely be happy, say hi to everyone, kidnap my boyfriend, and fall asleep there after.

In order to keep my sleep stores up, I had to drop two classes.  This bothers me a little bit, but I know I can handle my course load now.  I won’t be worrying about having six classes, just four.

If you’d like to know how I’m doing otherwise, I’m doing alright.  I’m tired a lot and it takes a lot of energy to do much.  I nap a lot and still manage to sleep like the dead.

Part of me is really excited for class tomorrow.  Not for any particular reason, but my brain works like this.  I like to have a schedule, a straight forward set of things to do and when to do them.  I excel in school because I have such a schedule.  I also keep looking forward to really little things like being able to put on make up in the morning.  I haven’t worn make up in over a week because I haven’t really needed it but I am looking forward to it.  Why?

It’s a ritual I have.  Wake up, shower, breakfast, hair, make up, clothes, out the door.  the ritual keeps me going and makes me feel a little less crazy I guess.  I also really really like make up.  It makes me happy.  🙂

OH!  YES!  I get to get coffee with Pretty in Pink tomorrow!  Which will be nice because I have also been craving coffee like a mad woman.  Part of my morning ritual I suppose.

Alright, I think I’m going to read some more and then shower and pack.

Don’t Forget To Be Awesome!!!!

Back to our regularly scheduled weather

No longer do I sit outside

In a brief, but indulgent Indian summer

Currently, I cling to my jackets

The chill numbs me

Whips my ponytail into my face

I enter the doors to class

Warmth filters, touching numb skin

Bringing red life back to my cheeks,

nose, ears, hands, but not my palms

My palms are warm from being wrapped

around my coffee, copiously mixed with cream and sugar

once in class, I sit and brace myself, storing up

Heat for the next time I venture into

My regularly scheduled weather

Thankful Post

A friend of mine has been doing a thankful post a day for each day of the month.  I think I shall do twenty three things/ groups/ items/ happenstances I am thankful for.  (twenty three days so far in this month.)

1. I am thankful for my family.  I have a mother, father, brother, grandparents, and three cats.  (There is more to the family than that, but now is not the time for the complexities that are my family’s issues with one another).  I am thankful that they not only care for me, pay for my education, and keep me in the state of living which I have become accustomed to, but because they love me.  Even my seventeen year old brother tells me he loves me.  I am so thankful for all the things they have taught me and all the things they give for me.  I love them.

2.  I am thankful for my three very amazing, awesome, super special apartment mates.  Now, as I will tell, I only really like two of my apartment mates.  The third… is kind of a bitch.  so why do I mention three here?  Because there is … sort of a third?  he’s there a lot and he’s been a great friend and we all love him to pieces and you know who you are.  To my actual two roommates, I can’t believe how lucky I am to have you both in my life.  I am truly blessed.  I am thankful that you all put up with my bitching and whining and complaining and mood swings and that drama that follows me.  To show my thanks, I’m making dinner this week.  And making you tea!

3. I am thankful for Mouse.  Mouse is my cat.  Not mine… but she is ours, my apartment mates and I’s.  She came into our lives ina tumultuous time and she is a beacon of crazy that I love.  MOUSE, MOMMY LOVES YOU!!!!!

4. I am thankful for my beds, both at my apartment and at home.  I love beds.  I do my best writing and plotting in beds.  Beds are also very comfortable and allow me to sleep.  Sleep is wonderful.  Thank you beds, I am so thankful I can fall into you and you’ll hug me with your warmth.

5. I am thankful for a very special man in my life. Not only did he swoop in when I was at my lowest point, he’s been there ever since.  He is amazing and so sweet to me.  He listens and does his very best to make me smile.  I am thankful that he is in my life because he reminds me that I am a good person, that I am cute, and that I am amazing.

6. I am thankful for tea in the night time, the non caffeinated variety.  It has really helped with my stress levels as of late and really keeps me more stable.  I am also thankful that it is just so darn tasty.

7. I am thankful for my new gal pal.  Anonymous blog, no names mentioned, but she’s such a sweetheart.  She is a lot like me and, coincidentally, we met up because we both dated the same stupid guy.  We’re awesome and she is, without a doubt, some one I am very thankful for.

8. I am thankful for books.  If you can’t tell, I am a bibliophile.  I have a serious book reading addiction.  I am thankful that I can find them, read them, reread them and love them.

9. I am thankful for coffee in the mornings.  Coffee, you delightful creature.  You help me get out of bed, into my skinny jeans and out into the world.  You encourage me to keep moving, keep going all the time.  Thank you

10.  I am thankful for my health.  Despite the colds, seasonal affective disorder and other odds and ends problems, I am in relatively good health.  I am thankful for it and I am happy to be able to get out of bed and do what I need to do.

11.  I am thankful for my kids.  I did not get pregnant and physically birth these children, but I am attached to my pre-schoolers and to many of the kids I babysit.  I am so thankful that they bring such light into my life.  I don’t know where I’d be without them.  Certainly I wouldn’t be at college….

12.  I am thankful for birth control, specifically the nuva ring.  NOT because I sleep around and hate taking the pill.  Because I had surgery on my thumb when I was eighteen and the surgery stopped my period and the nuva ring started it back up again and now regulates it and stops my periods from sending me to the hospital.  YAY!

13. I am thankful for my friends from home.  I don’t know who will read this, if any, but I love you all.  Seriously, I could not have made it this far without you.

14. I am thankful for my friends at school.  While I was quite the introvert freshmen year, I now have a great group of people who I know I can count on for anything.

15. I am thankful for my ex boyfriend who taught me how to shoot.  I’m pretty sure he looks back on it now and thinks… why did I teach her how to use another deadly weapon? What on earth was I thinking?  I am a pretty decent shot too.  Not great, but I can definitely hit where I am.  Should I need the skill, I now have it.  On the other hand, I feel like at this point, that’s all I can be thankful for from him.  He was an asshole.

16. I am thankful for hot showers.  No explanation needed because hot showers are so amazing.

17.  I am thankful for my laptop.  Not just because it’s a bitchin’ piece of technology, but because I don’t intentionally abuse, but I do.  I am thankful it continues to boot up everyday and let me go about my daily life online.  Thank you!

18. I am thankful for BBC and their wonderful programming.  Seriously, you guys write an amazing show.  WELL DONE!  Doctor Who, Torchwood, Merlin… seriously, you kick ass at this.

19. I am thankful for being legal to drink.  I am legal so now I don’t feel terrible about drinking.  I enjoy a hard cider or two with friends.  It’s wonderful.

20. I am thankful for my college education.  Without it, I’d have much less of a future.  I’d have much less of a life.  Thank you.

21. I am thankful for New York City.  You give me something to dream about on these cold winter nights.  I dream of wandering your well walked streets until I find the pulse of the city.

22. I am thankful for the stability of my companions.  You are all always there for me in some capacity, shape or form.  My life is erratic and my heart is so crazy that I simply must thank you for existing.

23.  I am thankful for YOU!  All of you!  My followers, fellow bloggers, wonderful amazing fantastic effing people.  I love you all beyond words.

Four ways to my heart

These are four things that are essentially how to win me over as a person, as a girl, as a friend, as a human.

First off, these are also in an ideal dating situation.  However, these are just things that I love.

1. Coffee.  Ask me out for coffee.  I love coffee.  I love tea.  I love hot beverages.  Even in the summer time I love them with a burning passion.  (I made a pun!)  Ask me out for coffee.  Watch my thoughts disperse like steam.  Listen to my chatter as I sip away, savouring sweetness and delight.  Give me suggestions for new drinks.

2. Traveling/ Adventure.  I am naturally a little more reserved.  however, I have recently found a deep love of adventure.  Get lost with me in a zoo or aquairum of park.  Take me horse back riding. Tell me to hold on and ride your motorcycle with me.  Grab my hand, say ‘I’m the Doctor. Run!’ It’s silly, it’s fun.  Even if I get a little scared, just assure me it’s going to be ok.  Give me ideas for an adventure

3. Book stores/ Libraries.  If you see me in a bookstore, it would be best just to let me travel among the shelves and stacks.  Don’t scare me, I’ll jump up and lose my thoughts.  Bookstores are the best kind of place for me.  I love them so much.  I will literally have this dreamy look on my face while I search for things.  Guide me to new books, old books, anywhere with book. Recommend a book to me.  Give idea on what you think i might like.  I like everything so… LOTS OF SUGGESTIONS

4. NYC.  Best place in the world for me.  I love the hustle and bustle and the noise and pulse and everything.  I feel so alive.  I feel so at home.  Broadway, Times Square, everything.  I want to live there.  Take me for a day trip.  Tell me about a show.  Recommend a place to eat.

These are a few of my favorite things.

Why I love Coffee


This picture really does capture some of the many reasons why I adore coffee.

I also have a serious things for mermaids.  I have loved them since I was little and I find myself fascinated by their more gruesome nature now that I am older.  Especially after some very bad problems with some ex boyfriends, the gruesome nature of the Siren’s Song and the death of marooned sailors seems utterly appealing to me.  I adore it. Mermaids, as magical creatures, are wonderful things.  I think the reason I really love them now because of their Siren’s Song.  Some mermaids must relish the ideas of singing their lustful songs and sinful melodies to lure those men into the water.  And then they kiss them… smiling as they drag them down until they kiss their very last breath away.  There must be some kind mermaids who feel about singing and kissing and killing.

Then there is the coffee aspect.  Coffee is such a wonderful thing.  Caffeine is a wonderful drug.  I think it’s great, especially in college.  I run on caffeine during rough weeks.  I like my coffee like I like my men, sweet.  I like a regular cup of coffee with several scoops of sugar and plenty of cream.  I also love gingerbread lattes and white chocolate mochas.  They are so good!