Words of Wisdom

A very near and dear person to my heart is usually the one whom I  hear the best advice from.

I have such example as:

“Fuck em”

“Technicalities” (usually said when losing an argument)

“It’s feeding time at the zoo.”

And my personal favorite

“Think of it in absolutes.  You either are or aren’t.  It’s that simple.”

For me, that is crazy insane difficult.  I can consider options and worries and everything in between.  However, dealing with life with absolutes seems so wonderful during stressful times.

I am going to pass my finals.

I will not let any one get me down.

I will pass my next drivers exam.

I will not allow people to make me feel inferior.

I will.

Why on earth does that help so much?

So Many Things

Alrighty, lots of things have been going on and I keep meaning to post but my laptop is a bitch and my iTouch is also giving me crap about posting, but what the hell, I am going to try.

So, my last few days have really been amazing. My grandparents gave me a happylight. It’s a light that releases daylight spectrum light waves. It’s light therapy, which is drastically helping my winter blues. I’ve been feeling better each day I use it.

I have been spending plenty of time with my friends and my boyfriend. It has been a great break. I have also been reading like crazy. I literally have gone through ten books since mid December.  It is crazy, but I am happy. I have to go apartment hunting on Monday, but hopefully that will all go well. I’m going shopping with a friend for her concert later in the month. It’s at her concert that I will be coming face to face with my x for the first time in a while. If you couldn’t tell by the animosity in which I write about him, I don’t really like him all that much. But I’ll have my boyfriend there, so I am going to be just fine

Now the only big decision I ha w is when to go back to the apartment. School doesn’t start til late January but I am allowed to go back at any time. Part of me wants to go back, but part of me really just wants to stay at my parent’s house. Going back means I have to start being a grown up again. Staying home means I can keep learning g how to drive ( did I mention hat? My boyfriend is teaching me the confidence part of driving. He says our date on Valentine’s day is going to be me taking my driver’s test. I’m scared to do it, but everyone is telling me I need to.)

being home is ‘t so bad. I also really don’t want to have to buy my own groceries again. I also can’t go back to school until I get my laptop fixed. We’re taking it to geek squad tonight before I go to Mayzie’s holiday party. Oh! That’s right! I HAVE A PARTY TONIGHT!!!!!

The real question is what do I wear? I’m thinking my black cowl neck sweater with the belt, my skinny jeans, and my brown boots. I think that will work, I’ll see if I can work my red ribbon into my outfit so Mayzie won’t tell me I’m not holiday themed. Well, I need to read some more. I shall post soon! Now I know the secret to posting on my iPod, yay!

Here are the books I read: (in case anyone was wondering)

City of Bones

Vampire Academy

Frostbite

Shadow Kiss

Blood Promise

Spirit Bound

Last Sacrifice

Alice in Zombieland

The Fault in Our Stars

The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight

Currently reading: Bloodlines and Winter blues

The passage of time in children

I know I see the passage of time best through books and photographs of days, months, years before my time.  I see progression as time and all of non linear wibbly wobbly timey wimey ball of stuff.  However, tonight kind of rocked my world, tilted my axis so to speak.

Tonight I went babysitting.

The two boys I babysit are kids I have known for most of their lives.  One if six and the other is four.  I nannied for them this summer and I really enjoyed seeing them everyday, even if they did drive me up a wall sometimes.  Seeing them everyday made me aware to plenty of tiny changes in their life, especially just normal little ones.  I watched as they got through camp and as they interested with all their friends.  I watched them learn to ride bikes

The last time I saw them it was August.  Now….

THey both got taller and one has glasses.  They both still smile and hug me, but I could see the passage of time on them.  It was terrifying.  It was wonderful.

Both boys are growing up and while I may want them to stay little for longer, they can not.  Watching them grow up is a privilege.

I sound like a sap, god dammit where is my boyfriend when I need a hug?

Ugh, ok any other things I shouldn’t mention.  Dad had surgery today and he is doing better.  The house is tense and I want to to be Christmas so that the cheer infects every one and has them smile.  I want to spend another night in my apartment bed with my boyfriend snuggled up next to me.  I want to go back to my pre schoolers and teach them.  I want to see my two favorite boys everyday.  I want all this happiness because the house is crazy and happiness balances out crazy.