Before I get into my big point, I’d like to note that I got 22 vies today all from one person… While I am flatter, still a little concerned. They are from the US, so I assume it’s one of my friends checking in on me.
So, to the main point of this post is my hormones. Like many women, I get particularly hormonal at certain times of the month. While I have birth control that helps with that, I can still be quite the bear when I want to be. However, my hormones usually get me to this point once a month where I literally am at a loss.
I get exceptionally mood swing-y. I go from happy to sad to meh to angry to normal in a few hours, or minutes. I see mistakes in everything I do and in my person. I see myself as un pretty, as a failure, as a general bad human being. I second guess everything and apologize a lot. For example, my boy had an almost accident today and I was really scared. He told me what happened and all I could say was, No getting hit by cars!
I just thought it was so stupid and pointless and crazy and I was like stupid stupid stupid. And so I made sure that later he knew that I was glad he was safe and sound and that I loved him. He was still shaken up about it later and I made sure to tell him that I was glad he was safe and that I was sorry I belittled it and that He is so important to me.
It’s little stuff like that. It just drives me up a wall that I do things and it sounds so bad to me.
Pretty in Pink and I are texting and she’s helping a lot. My boy is so understanding and he knows that this time of month I’m just crazy and he understands that. He gets that. He’s amazing.
I’m sorry about all the ranting that just happened. I love you guys for putting up with me.
On the list of good things that happened today, I went driving a lot with Amy Pond and I did really well. we went shopping and I bought some spot treatment from LUSH. We tried on pretty dresses and we just had a good day. I even made dinner (baked potatoes and broccoli). Now I’m at home because tomorrow… I GO SEE THE ADDAMS FAMILY!!!! I am super excited and crazy happy about it. 🙂
I hope that your weekends are going well!
Don’t Forget To Be Awesome!